such a joke...

for regular readers (haha) you'd remember in the post the other day i mentioned that i have plans both tonight and tomorrow...
in a span of like 30 minutes, there both ruined.

lol i just don't understand why things are always so hard?

tonight i was meant to be going to a friend's 30th birthday, the plan was that i was going to catch a train to the inner city where another friend of mine works and we were then going to drive together, she always lives somewhat near me so she was also going to drop me home.
i got home from the gym and i was in such a good mood because i was looking forward to my weekend.

i then got a text from this friend saying sorry she's sick in bed and won't be able to make it.
obviously her being sick isn't her fault and i'm not at all annoyed at her.
its just the situation.
so idk what to do now, do i get the train in? which would involve a 45 min train ride, followed by a tram to a place i don't even know where i'm going and would take over an hour.
getting home is obvious a problem and would involve the tram and train by myself late at night or an $80 cab ride home.

and theres also the fact that aside from the bday girl, shes the only other person i would know.
i have been out with the bday girl and some of her friends before and their nice and welcoming so  i don't think me not having fun would be a problem so much.

so idk.

and then saturday night, i'm going to my friend's brother's 18th.
we're going to a club in the city and getting a limo from their house.

my friend that lives near me, we were going to carpool.
she messages me before and is all -idk i'm sick so i don't think i'll drink and just drive in so we can leave whenever plus i don't want to pay for the limo.

urgh. i really like this friend but shes such a downer.
she never wants to go out and when we are out she never wants to drink and always wants to go home early.
i understand clubs aren't for everyone but we go out so infrequently, just have a few drinks and a dance and just enjoy yourself, she never seems to have fun and it annoys me.

i don't want to drive in with her and i don't want to leave early.
i want to get wasted and dance all night.

plus she works full time and the limo is like $30.
whatever i still think i'm going to go to this friends house with or without her and get the limo.

its just such a joke, all i wanted to do was have fun this weekend and its already turned to shit and is too hard.
i'll probably just bail on tonight

...

just talked to my sister, she said i should still go, get the train and tram in and she would be willing to pick me up later.

grr idk, it all seems like too much effort.
if i did bail on tonight i don't think my friend would mind and would understand and it just means that we can just catch up another time.

screw my friend tonight tomorrow, i'm def getting the limo.

idk going to think about tonight a bit longer.

just having that conversation with my sister has made me feel better, its amazing what happens when you can actually talk to someone...