i'm incredibly lonely and sad.
i don't think i can do this anymore.
nobody wants me around anyway.
i'll always be alone.
i don't know what to do anymore.
i just need someone to be kind to me.

i screwed it up.
and i'm the only one to blame, i had something so good and i 'm so fucked up and stupid that i screwed it up.
no one will ever love this fucked up misunderstood crazy bitch or will ever try.
i want someone to see that i'm different and worth it.
i hate myself so much.
i need love but i will never get it.

forever lost.

i don't even know what to do with myself anymore.
i just want it to stop.
i'm so lonely.
i feel ignored and like i don't matter to anyone.

everyone hates me, i hate me.

i feel like i don't have that feeling of 'home' anymore, even in my own bed where i would feel safest.
i want to run away.

fear and loathing.

when i date someone i am in a constant state of fear knowing that sooner or later they will get rid of me.
even though i try to hide all the ugly stuff about me.
everything i do and everything i am is never good enough.
and it makes me so sad.